For the past couple of days I've been feeling so uninspired and for the most part pretty down about it, I know that most of us no matter what are medium go through this at some stage but I really was just coming up short with any hint of an idea that I had.

A lot of my inspiration comes from music and books I read and the ideas that form in my head I try my best to sketch or write down into a little book that my Mum got for me whilst she lived in India. I went back and looked through it and there was nothing I could see that clicked in my head, it was just torture.

I think I have the tendency to over think; I am constantly comparing my work with others and as cliche as it sounds I really am my toughest critic. In the midst of all of this I forgot exactly why I do what I do, I do it for me. It's an escape, a release from everything in my life, good or bad. I need to remember more frequently that for me photography isn't something that's going to come and go in my life, it is my life. I know that I'm only nineteen and yes there are so many others like me out there trying desperately to make a name for themselves in an industry that is overwhelmed with already incredibly talented artists but I suppose that's what strives us, well, me more.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, no matter how down you get about your work, or how uninspired you feel, never, ever give up on what you want, only you can make it happen so go out and go and get it. I guess I should take my own advice sometimes.

So, I forced myself to take my camera out today and thankfully the beautiful Ellis obliged to model. I cannot express in words how insanely windy it was today, I genuinely thought I was going to be blown away along with Ellis and my camera.

We got to the location and it was raining and I was certain there was going to be a tornado or something crazy, I still had nothing in my head and we sat in the car for ages just talking about what we could do. The thing about Ellis that she as a person is just inspiring and I guess with the weather it all sort of came together. So, thank you Ellis and to the crazy wind that almost blew us away.

Here's a couple of outtakes for you!