For the past couple of days I've been feeling so uninspired and for the most part pretty down about it, I know that most of us no matter what are medium go through this at some stage but I really was just coming up short with any hint of an idea that I had.

A lot of my inspiration comes from music and books I read and the ideas that form in my head I try my best to sketch or write down into a little book that my Mum got for me whilst she lived in India. I went back and looked through it and there was nothing I could see that clicked in my head, it was just torture.

I think I have the tendency to over think; I am constantly comparing my work with others and as cliche as it sounds I really am my toughest critic. In the midst of all of this I forgot exactly why I do what I do, I do it for me. It's an escape, a release from everything in my life, good or bad. I need to remember more frequently that for me photography isn't something that's going to come and go in my life, it is my life. I know that I'm only nineteen and yes there are so many others like me out there trying desperately to make a name for themselves in an industry that is overwhelmed with already incredibly talented artists but I suppose that's what strives us, well, me more.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, no matter how down you get about your work, or how uninspired you feel, never, ever give up on what you want, only you can make it happen so go out and go and get it. I guess I should take my own advice sometimes.

So, I forced myself to take my camera out today and thankfully the beautiful Ellis obliged to model. I cannot express in words how insanely windy it was today, I genuinely thought I was going to be blown away along with Ellis and my camera.

We got to the location and it was raining and I was certain there was going to be a tornado or something crazy, I still had nothing in my head and we sat in the car for ages just talking about what we could do. The thing about Ellis that she as a person is just inspiring and I guess with the weather it all sort of came together. So, thank you Ellis and to the crazy wind that almost blew us away.

Here's a couple of outtakes for you!

2011

So I've decided to start a blog, I've been giving it some consideration for a while now - mainly due to the fact that I usually come up short when it comes to writing about anything let alone my own work - and have finally decided to go ahead with it, with it being a new year in just under half an hour I guess it's an appropriate time to start.

I guess you can expect things such as behind the scenes, tutorials, before and afters, inspiration etc.  but my main focus are the ideas and stories behind my work, I really want to delve deeper into the characters I have created and share their stories with you; I sometimes feel that they have a lot more to say and with the way my mind works I'm constantly scribbling ideas down and trying to build them into something more legitimate than their foundations. 

I really am going to force myself into keeping this going and hopefully this will develop into something not just useful and interesting for myself but for others too. 

Now that I've bored you all to death I shall say goodbye for now and wish you all a wonderful 2012!

PS - I promise I will sort out the garish theme once I've got my head around this whole thing.